Dust...  

Posted by ♥ Mina ♥

Everyone in your life will only be there for a season, some seasons last a lifetime, others can be up to 5 minutes. Some people can affect you by saying "I do" and others by winking at you from a distance. The danger is when their season has ended but we try to hold onto them for selfish reasons, and wonder why things have "changed" without realizing that it's time for them to move on to someone else's. 


As human beings, it's hard to let go of people that have made such a great impact in our lives. It's hard to accept that we have to live on without them, that they won't be there to evoke in us the same feelings as before. We get upset, angry, lonely, and depressed, ignoring other people that come to replace them in our lives. 

I have finally finished finished packing for my trip to Canada which begins tomorrow. It's like everything is hitting me in the face, it's a new year, I have new relationships, new mindset, a new laptop (MACBOOK), and I am headed to a new environment to hopefully grow into a new and more mature being. I am looking forward to everything that is going to happen this year. This is the YEAR OF CHANGE. And I am embracing it wholeheartedly. 

My dad is from Senegal, and he is worried sick about me going into the cold winter, he lives in Brazil and calls twice a day to pressure me into buying more and more clothes. While I appreciate the concern, it gets a bit annoying at times. While my mum is learning to let go of her "baby," probably the hardest thing a mother can do. 

DUST:
It's amazing how dust accumulates. What you don't manage properly, you end up losing. Ever noticed after you've placed an object somewhere for over 2 weeks without touching it, it is covered in dust? Prior to using it again, you have to wipe all the dust off and hope that it still works. Certain aspects of life are the same way. If you don't manage your body properly, you will get sick. If you always eat fast food, you will gain weight. If you constantly stare at the computer, your ocular cells will die. If you fail to feed your brain, it will shrink and brain cells will also die. If you refuse to invest in your relationship, you will get dumped or make your partner miserable to say the least. If you fail to manage your time, you will suffer the consequences (most of the time at least :) ). So going into this year, let bygones be bygones. Forget the old, and embrace the new. Weed out of what matters in your life, and take good care of it. Because in the end you don't know what you have until it's gone. 

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Looking through the Hourglass  

Posted by ♥ Mina ♥

Currently listening to: Kanye West's CD: "808's & Heartbreak"

First of all, Merry Christmas to everyone! I wish you all the things that matter the most on this Holiday season.

It just officially hit me. I am going to Canada for four months. And what a time to be leaving! My aunt will still be in the hospital by the time I come back (She suffers from Multiple Sclerosis). My mum will feel lonelier than ever now that she will be the only one in this apartment. I have finally established a mentorship bond with one of my bosses, Dr. B, and I will definitely maintain contact with him to ensure that the bond doesn't weaken. And in the relationship realm, I am almost glad to leave so that I can have a clearer mind and know what or who matters the most to me. I know what my heart wants, it wants a bit of all 4 guys (yeah... 4) but since it can't have that, I just am glad to shut the button off for the time being. I'll see who holds down the fort and is still standing when I come back. And who knows... maybe my future husband is in Ca! ^_^ lol...

Maybe there shouldn't be any pressure but there is. I can remember telling to my girl friends in my first year of college after I have finally decided to break up with my ex, that all the guys that talk to me bore me so quickly. It's not that I expect someone that has traveled to over 30 countries or speak different languages like me, there are many of them out there. I just wanted someone with that "something" and when I saw it, I would know. Now I met 4 guys like that. None understand why I even ponder on who to pick but it's my life, when I commit, I commit, and I don't want to just jump into this without being fair. That's why it's called dating. 

Dating is like going into a car store, and taking each car for a drive until you find the one that you feel most comfortable in. Some people pick cars because they look good, others because they are cheap, some still because they have the essentials, while others because they want to impress people. I just want a car that can carry me from points now (A) through forever (Z), with the least amount of damage. It's okay if it fails me a few times, it's just a car, I don't expect anything perfect. A gas efficient car, one that's not necessarily new but has not had *too* many owners. I love the luxury of calling something my own and not having to worry about it falling into someone else's hands once I've fallen asleep. I want to feel secure in it, and now that when it storms, the car can protect me, when people bother me, it has tints to hide me. I want a car that I can drive with my eyes closed. A car that I can take care of, feed, clean and make look good. A car that treats me as good as I treat it. Although I am not a perfect owner, I know that I can maintain it with the best of my abilities .
I made a list that has both the negative and positive qualities of each, I'm not going to share that list but I will share this tidbit. 


Car I (Leo): I have known this one for three years. It was an online auction, but at the time of our first encounter, I already had a car, a horrible lemon but a car nonetheless. I thought it was a sweet deal, up to this date it only has had one owner, low mileage, it aspires to become something great one day. It is well kept, a bit too flashy but I feel *extremely* comfortable in it. The only thing is that it needs to keep its horn under control but as it matures further that will take care of itself.

Car II (Libra): I met this car parked in COB two years ago. It is sleek, lean, dark, just how I like'em. It has had three owners so far, but has not had any for the past year and a half. What I hate about it is that it hardly ever comes on time. We share the same long term goals, and I figure since it's going down that pathway it might as well take me. It needs a few tweaking and tightening up but all those flaws make it what it is, and I see myself driving that for the rest of my life, no doubt. Its comfort level is medium high, but it doesn't require much gas.

Car III (Aries): (...)

Car IV (Virgo): I met this car in January 2008, and it's more like a big efficient truck. I requires a lot of gas, but I have no problem paying the extra to keep it going. On certain roads, it rides a bit too slow for my taste, and on other roads, it flows by really quickly. Astrologically, it is the most compatible with me, and I see why. It has had countless owners during its prime, but it has had only one prior to meeting me for over 4 years. It has its own garage and is willing to follow me wherever my path leads. Its horn can get a bit dirty at times, but it seems that most cars tend to be like that. 


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Land Ahoy! City Spotted... We're safe now...  

Posted by ♥ Mina ♥


I have officially gone through all the Internet's rites of passage, from being on Hi5, MySpace, and Facebook, to owning a Yahoo, Google, and Hotmail account, to staying up late hours chatting with strangers in chat rooms, to actually meeting people that I've met online, to watching Youtube videos of a cat flushing a toilet and people dancing for hours, etc. Now it's BLOGGING time! Not sure how long I will be keeping one of these but it would be interesting to see. This year has been both the worst and best year of my life. 2008 is therefore the year of the extremes: either I would have been extremely happy and excited or extremely sad and depressed, never before seen in Mina's life! And at the end of the day, I have come to find out that I only have one friend that I can call my best friend. My mother always told me never to trust in human beings, as The Bible says, only trust in God whose words never change.  This brings me to my favorite quoted by Shakespeare: "Love all, trust a few, and do wrong to no one." Not sure if I quoted it properly. But the point is... as much as I try to give people a chance, they will eventually disappoint me. I'm sure I have disappointed many throughout my life but me being a human, therefore not being perfect, is not an excuse for making so many mistakes. 


I don't want to be like glass, although it seems strong, it is transparent and when it falls once or twice it will break. I don't want to be like a stone, there are too many of them, not valuable at all, the hurricane can easily carry it away, and if one tries hard enough, one can easily break it. I don't want to be like water, although it brings life,  it is easily influenced, easily polluted. I don't want to be like the wind, it comes and goes, and is moodier than Britney Spears. I want to be like a polished diamond (which happens to be my birth month's stone). "Diamond" means unbreakable, and untamed. In black language, it means "You can't touch this" or "I wish you would try and touch this *_* ." It makes you think that you are looking inside of it but all along all you can see are multiple reflections of yourself in different angles. It seduces you with its beauty, shine and sleek exterior, and if ever you aim to bite it, you risk losing all your teeth as a result. Everyone that owns it feel special, but only a few are given the honor to come anywhere near it. Only a selected few can safely say that they can afford to have it. Only a few are willing to confidently grab it and say THIS is MINE! Only a few...

This was my introduction, yes everyone Mina is now a Blogger! Hooray ^_^ 
Thank you for reading. Tune in next time! 

XOXO,
Mina

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