Currently listening to: Kanye West's CD: "808's & Heartbreak"

First of all, Merry Christmas to everyone! I wish you all the things that matter the most on this Holiday season.

It just officially hit me. I am going to Canada for four months. And what a time to be leaving! My aunt will still be in the hospital by the time I come back (She suffers from Multiple Sclerosis). My mum will feel lonelier than ever now that she will be the only one in this apartment. I have finally established a mentorship bond with one of my bosses, Dr. B, and I will definitely maintain contact with him to ensure that the bond doesn't weaken. And in the relationship realm, I am almost glad to leave so that I can have a clearer mind and know what or who matters the most to me. I know what my heart wants, it wants a bit of all 4 guys (yeah... 4) but since it can't have that, I just am glad to shut the button off for the time being. I'll see who holds down the fort and is still standing when I come back. And who knows... maybe my future husband is in Ca! ^_^ lol...

Maybe there shouldn't be any pressure but there is. I can remember telling to my girl friends in my first year of college after I have finally decided to break up with my ex, that all the guys that talk to me bore me so quickly. It's not that I expect someone that has traveled to over 30 countries or speak different languages like me, there are many of them out there. I just wanted someone with that "something" and when I saw it, I would know. Now I met 4 guys like that. None understand why I even ponder on who to pick but it's my life, when I commit, I commit, and I don't want to just jump into this without being fair. That's why it's called dating. 

Dating is like going into a car store, and taking each car for a drive until you find the one that you feel most comfortable in. Some people pick cars because they look good, others because they are cheap, some still because they have the essentials, while others because they want to impress people. I just want a car that can carry me from points now (A) through forever (Z), with the least amount of damage. It's okay if it fails me a few times, it's just a car, I don't expect anything perfect. A gas efficient car, one that's not necessarily new but has not had *too* many owners. I love the luxury of calling something my own and not having to worry about it falling into someone else's hands once I've fallen asleep. I want to feel secure in it, and now that when it storms, the car can protect me, when people bother me, it has tints to hide me. I want a car that I can drive with my eyes closed. A car that I can take care of, feed, clean and make look good. A car that treats me as good as I treat it. Although I am not a perfect owner, I know that I can maintain it with the best of my abilities .

I made a list that has both the negative and positive qualities of each, I'm not going to share that list but I will share this tidbit. 

Car I (Leo): I have known this one for three years. It was an online auction, but at the time of our first encounter, I already had a car, a horrible lemon but a car nonetheless. I thought it was a sweet deal, up to this date it only has had one owner, low mileage, it aspires to become something great one day. It is well kept, a bit too flashy but I feel *extremely* comfortable in it. The only thing is that it needs to keep its horn under control but as it matures further that will take care of itself.

Car II (Libra): I met this car parked in COB two years ago. It is sleek, lean, dark, just how I like'em. It has had three owners so far, but has not had any for the past year and a half. What I hate about it is that it hardly ever comes on time. We share the same long term goals, and I figure since it's going down that pathway it might as well take me. It needs a few tweaking and tightening up but all those flaws make it what it is, and I see myself driving that for the rest of my life, no doubt. Its comfort level is medium high, but it doesn't require much gas.

Car III (Aries): (...)

Car IV (Virgo): I met this car in January 2008, and it's more like a big efficient truck. I requires a lot of gas, but I have no problem paying the extra to keep it going. On certain roads, it rides a bit too slow for my taste, and on other roads, it flows by really quickly. Astrologically, it is the most compatible with me, and I see why. It has had countless owners during its prime, but it has had only one prior to meeting me for over 4 years. It has its own garage and is willing to follow me wherever my path leads. Its horn can get a bit dirty at times, but it seems that most cars tend to be like that.